"Our attitude toward life determines life's' attitude towards us."
~ Earl Nightingale
I am working on candy bars for a friend who owns a local business selling prom gowns and renting tuxedos. She has a great eye for style and runs a very successful business. She has always been a strong support in my life, I've known her since Jr. high, and she remains an important person in my life today. Every year she hosts a "Super Bowl Prom Dress Kick-Off" the day before the Super Bowl. This year my candy bars and mini cupcakes will be part of the event. I also designed her flyers and water bottle wrappers to match the candy bars.
As you know, making ends meet is my number one worry these days. My oldests daughter is away at college in San Diego, and she and I are paying for her college. She has taken on most of the expense by way of student loans. I am so proud of her, she is working hard to get the education I have dreamed of for her since she started kindergarten.
Unfortunately, her dad is not part of her life right now. In fact, he is not part of either of my daughters' life at the moment. It is really sad, actually, and not how I want it to be. I have been struggling with the fact that I cannot control what happens, it is hard to sit by and watch my daughters' hurt and disappointment. The best I can do is to offer my love and support. I am trying, but I know I can't replace the love of their father. Someday, I hope they will be in his life and he in theirs. For now, I have to let them make their own choices. It's hard. When our children hurt, we hurt for them.
I wish no ill will towards my ex-husband. In fact, I wish him peace. I don't think he has it now. I can't imagine what my life would be without my daughters in it. He can't possibly be at peace without them. What happened between us is in the past. I wish him well, and hope he finds the help he needs for his emotional health.
We can't change what has happened to us in our past. We also can't continue to blame people for our failures, even when they've done us wrong. What we can do, is learn from our experiences and mistakes, and move on from there. I am constantly learning I can only control what I do and how I think. I must let things happen as they may. I am not resonsible for anyone else's decisions or mistakes. I repeat this to myself often, I am working on letting go...it is a process. Small steps...
Wishing you peace and Happy thoughts,